I’m sitting alone in the rehearsal space. OAEC calls this the meeting room. We call it the rehearsal space.

I just built a fire in the wood stove and brewed some tea. I already brushed my teeth, read a little bit form an inspiring book, and prayed on my knees at the side of my bed. I pray every morning. I pray to life itself. My basic prayer is “Take me and use me as a servant of love, compassion, and transformation. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.”
Sometimes I’ll list all the people, things and situations I’m grateful for. Today I listed each member of my ensemble, Alex Kelly, Seth Ford-Young, Jenya Chernoff, Chris Grady and Myles Boisen. They are such wonderful people and I am so grateful to be working with them. I’m also grateful to our executive producer Murray Jason who put the money up for us to come on this rehearsal intensive/retreat. This has been an incredible experience and I know that our intimacy with the material and each other will come through in the recording.

I hope that this album touches people in a deep way. I hope it inspires. I think it will. The material certainly moves me. That’s why I feel so called to make it. This work isn’t about my ambitions but about my calling. I have to make this work and get it out to the world. And everything I’ve needed to make it happen has been provided. That’s a good sign. I believe in what we’re doing.

I mentioned transformation early. That’s a word that has been used quite a lot in new age circles so it has some woo woo connotations. But transformation doesn’t look like unicorns and rainbows. Transformation hurts and is deep, dark and dirty. That is one of the primary themes of this work.